Christmas is in 3 days. And I'm not in the mood for it. What????? Not in the mood?
Nope. Nada. Nothing.
I've decorated my family room and kitchen. I even decorated my living room. I even went shopping for cute vintage Christmas stuff at thrift stores and antique shops.
I even got to go on a almost free to me vacation to Phoenix a few weeks back where I found all this great Christmas inspiration.
But I'm still not in the mood for Christmas. And I hate it.
I normally get all excited at the anticipation of Christmas each year. It makes me feel like a child. I love the decorating, I love the lights. The entire build up to Christmas is what I love and adore. But this year, I feel nothing.
Not really sure why. Maybe it's the lack of funds to do what I want for Christmas.
Maybe it's the whole economy thing. Or maybe it's because my husband has hardly worked at all in the last 6 months and doesn't qualify for unemployment.
Maybe it's because I am afraid I will lose my house.
Maybe it's because someone broke into my car last night (well we left the door unlocked) and stole my GPS.
Maybe it's because I tend to procrastinate. All I know is that I haven't felt like shopping for gifts (so unlike me), I've gotten a few things, but still need to get a few more things. I haven't wrapped anything. I haven't sent out my Christmas cards. I haven't even hung any stockings on the mantel (I hope that I don't have to use last years stockings again).
Maybe I just need to fall to my knees and thank my Heavenly Father for the best gift ever. And remember that Christ is the reason for the season.
Maybe then I can get my Christmas joy back.
Until then, I want to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas!