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Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Why am I not in the mood for Christmas?

Christmas is in 3 days. And I'm not in the mood for it. What????? Not in the mood?


Nope. Nada. Nothing.


I've tried.

I've decorated my family room and kitchen. I even decorated my living room. I even went shopping for cute vintage Christmas stuff at thrift stores and antique shops.

I even got to go on a almost free to me vacation to Phoenix a few weeks back where I found all this great Christmas inspiration.

But I'm still not in the mood for Christmas. And I hate it.

I normally get all excited at the anticipation of Christmas each year. It makes me feel like a child. I love the decorating, I love the lights. The entire build up to Christmas is what I love and adore. But this year, I feel nothing.

Not really sure why. Maybe it's the lack of funds to do what I want for Christmas.

Maybe it's the whole economy thing. Or maybe it's because my husband has hardly worked at all in the last 6 months and doesn't qualify for unemployment.

Maybe it's because I am afraid I will lose my house.

Maybe it's because someone broke into my car last night (well we left the door unlocked) and stole my GPS.

Maybe it's because I tend to procrastinate. All I know is that I haven't felt like shopping for gifts (so unlike me), I've gotten a few things, but still need to get a few more things. I haven't wrapped anything. I haven't sent out my Christmas cards. I haven't even hung any stockings on the mantel (I hope that I don't have to use last years stockings again).

Maybe I just need to fall to my knees and thank my Heavenly Father for the best gift ever. And remember that Christ is the reason for the season.

Maybe then I can get my Christmas joy back.

Until then, I want to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas!

16 comments:

  1. Your decor is beautiful as always. I feel you pain, about not being in the Christmas mood. I am feeling the same way, I will be praying for you.

    Cha Cha

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  2. This year has been a hard one for many people (my family included). We did loose our home but it has also been one of the best years of my life in other ways. Try not to stree about it too much and keep moving forward. May God bless you and your family today and always.
    -Aaron

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  3. What has taken away our joy? I think the economy and the pressure that we put on ourselves.

    Blessings!

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  4. I am so sorry you are going through a tough time. I hope you have a better 2011 and your husband finds work and your house stays yours.

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  5. This has been a very hard year! I am more emotional this year and sadder then I've been in a long time. I agree that a lot of it is the economy! I just keep trying to remember the good things I have in my life; family, friends and good health(even though I don't have health ins...) and yes I am blessed. Wishing you some peace and joy!

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  6. This has been a rough year for us too-my husband lost his job in Jan. and has worked 4 different jobs since then. I know how you feel about losing your house! We tried to get on that "plan" to lower our payments but they denied us because they couldn't lower our payment to the 30%-we owed too much and made too little-Really? Ugh. Plus I'm having surgery on the 27th so I haven't wanted to get out too many decorations. I'm just trying to keep it real simple and just be thankful that God sent his son!

    Hugs,
    Jody

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  7. Sounds like so many of us have had some sort of hardship, loss or job related stress this year, but we have to remind ourselves what the Christmas event is all about! God gives us only what he knows we can handle. Take a deep breath, look in your heart and dont stop feeling happiness. It's all we got!

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  8. First of all, thank you for all the decorating and living inspiration you've given so many of us. It's been such a rough time for so many & it sucks when you live in fear of losing what you have and not being able to afford the necessities like food & utilities, let alone a place to live. Like you, I procrastinate, finally getting my daughters to haul my tree out of the "storage" room upstairs. I'm slowly decorating but my heart is not in it. My husband lost his job of 30 years in May '09, I'm semi-disabled. There's no money for presents, but I've been frantically trying to make my dd's & future son-in-law's gifts. I just want to go to sleep & wake up in the spring. God bless you & yours & I hope things get better soon.

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  9. Hmmm...I have read all of the above, and it seems there is a general dampening of festive spirit all round. I must admit, after buying (and then losing)the stamps, and the Christmas cards...my cards never made it out of the packet, and certainly didn't get posted. Our tree got put up only because I 'struck while the iron was hot', and when I had the urge to put it up in November..I did so. Otherwise it may not have happened. Life can really suck sometimes. Things are a bit on the lean side here, as far as gifts go. And with all the rain we've had recently, all the usual delicious stone fruit of the season were ruined. The stuff in the shops looks ok, (it has been in cold storage for months if not years)but as soon as you get it home...it does'nt ripen...it just rots and then you throw it in the trash. Yes things, somehow, just are not the same this Christmas, in a lot of ways. It has helped, that I can still play our Christmas CDs and the house is decked out...but there IS 'something'dampening the festive spirit. Still, we do have a lot to be thankful for. Not least of which is the fact that we have been given a saviour to embrace.

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  10. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding;
    In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." (Proverbs 3:5-6, NKJV)
    Merry Christmas! Mary :O)

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  11. Bless you- I know your feeling! I lost my job and the first time in my life, I will not have insurance in Feb. Either money for Insurance or food :( Changes our whole personality, and outlook!

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  12. I am so sorry you are going through so much. I so appreciate your honesty on the reality of what it is like for so many people this year. I must admit, my favorite day is the day after Christmas, where the pressure is off and it is just family time. Maybe if you can't find your "regular" Christmas spirit this year, I wish you luck in something that gives you the fortitude to face the New Year with a smile. I am wishing for you something to smile about! Laura

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  13. I can totally relate, Kim! I have very little enthusiasm for Christmas this year...maybe once I am with my family I will feel better. I hope you find yours so you can enjoy the holidays.
    Those feather trees are beautiful.
    Merry Christmas to you and yours.

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  14. what's not to love about someone like you who shares something that's not all perfect, and happy... and pretty emotionally... you go girl... see how these other ladies opened up, now that's cool. i think we all struggle to feel and not be numb and horrified with some of what life throws at us. you're amazing...

    cindy

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  15. Kim, you've been so wonderful at showing your beautiful creative decor, and you've had this inside you all this time. I'm so sorry. So many are having a hard time right now. I'm not feeling it either. I did the whole decorating and trees and never got around to wrapping the few presents we bought online. Just the two of us here this year and the pets. Oh well. I'll have you in my heart and in my pocket tomorrow. I'll sit here in my jammies and probably not fix anything but crackers and cheese!
    Love ya, Brenda

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  16. Your post made me sad. I can't seem to find the spirit this year either. It just seemed to come so fast this year. I do hope your situation will improve and that you will have a Merry Christmas. Hang in there...2011 has to be better. Your decor is beautiful, as always.

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